
To stay yourself
Being yourself is difficult. In the first place, some of us might not understand even what type of person we are. Sometimes people don't know what they like and what they don't like about something like what kind of job you really like to do, who you want to be with, where you want to live, then how you want to live your life. And, the thing is 'for what' to live your life. For your family like father and mother? For your lovers? For your company and coworkers? Or for your status in society and expectations from others?
Any of those above is true and not true, I believe. However, people often try hard to work for other people and things, not for yourself. I am sure it is wonderful to work and live for others, but do some of you sometimes sacrifice your own private time and mental or physical health for others, ignoring your honest feelings?
Looking back on my past experience, I was a person who really wanted to get attention from others in terms of evaluation on performance at school and work. The harder I tried to work, the higher I got my reputations and expectations, but at the same time, I was getting overwhelmed by much higher pressure and responsibility. I had no other choice but to stop doing that due to so much stress before I realized it.
Probably this sort of situation couldn't mean to keep staying myself. And this wasn't nobody's fault, definitely not myself. Just adjusted to the environment and changed with the times. In the process of adjusting myself with others, that adjustment had just finished. That's it. It is what it is.
The important thing is that how you accept your past, current and future. What happened to your life is no longer beyond your control. What you were in the past includes part of you. That is also you.
Understanding and keeping staying yourself is hard, because there is no answer. But, let me say my answer, I am wondering if it means continuing to figure out and change yourself with time.
Today's article was kind of something philosophical, though…..but it would be nice to have a day like this! Have a nice day! Bye!